Saturday, January 07, 2006
{ 8:28 PM }
i sometimes quiry my existence. i dont know if i ever existed or even is existing. sometimes i feel that i dont exist. i mean..sometimes i look invisible, transparent..even if i'm there, i looked as though i'm not there. i dont know how to explain this, but everything is so complicated. yesterday went back for cca orientation day. we had to fall in in pt kit. at first i though we neednt change into full u, but in the end, we did. we were divided into groups to do some field cooking. but in the end left only 6 person, me and xueli and some other squadmates. the rest went to march. hahaas. so i guess it's something good. we cooked some funny dishes, but we didnt include sardines(: which is a good thing. ok..we didnt get to eat. instead it was like given to those sec 1s to try. after field cooking, we were suppose to fall in the others, so we changed into full u. we took like about half an hour. hahaas. so long. but those ncos didnt scold us *grins*. so we fall in and did baton drills. laterit rained even more heavily, so we went into concourse and did arms drills, with a real rifle. so heavy. after that we returned the arms and were march back to 32 classroom blcok. there we had uniform checks. and i was so angry. i polished my boots and they say i didnt. walao eh..so angry with that person kkx? when you tried hard for something, and still you got scolded for not trying, it's really sad. i was so angry! and we needed to do 110 push ups. we returned 60, left about 50. and those 60 were like retuned by pumpings, star jumps and dont know what. so idiotic. and so tiring.
